#going fucking insane over these lol
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With such big, hefty heroes, it sure is helpful to have a caring summoner ā a very, very caring summoner who's always ready with more food.
Commissioned from @/wiishyishii on Twitter
#going absolutely hog wild and feral over these frothing at the mouth#stuff i commissioned#the S supports#fat emblem#male weight gain#ssbhm#feeder emblem#maleweightgain#the blorbs are all big and round#going fucking insane over these lol
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I think that the party's communication issues can be summed up as "man, is it awkward to tell someone that you want to spend the rest of your life with them if you've only know them for a few months? Probably."
#isat#isat spoilers#in stars and time#listen they will kill for each other but also its such a short time???? like??? thats part of the tragedy tbh#like!!! yeah theyll go back to their previous lives bc who in their right minds throw out everything they were doing before for people youv#only known for a few months and it turns out all of them do bc theyre insane for each other but!!!! like!!!! thats still a big ask!!!!!#yeah lets throw out everything we've ever know to be together lets fucking go and then they do in the end!!!! but!!!#thats because theyre all are ride or die to the extreme for each other!!!!!! far more than siffrin thinks anyone will ever be for him!!!!#anyway I have a lot of feelings about the party and just how bonkers (affectionate) they are#yeah no siffrin I too would not expect people to put aside their previous lives especially if its clear they have other plans#'yeah im gonna invite myself over to your house to live here lol' yeah no I would not assume that!!!!!!!#the issue is more that issue doesnt communicate what he really wants because if they do and his family says no then... being together truly#will end so he doesnt ask so they never will get a no so it never has to end (and has his reason to keep going)#this is turning into an essay in the tags but like. God its a wild set of circumstances so#tbh Siffrin not thinking the party wants to travel together is not wild to me neither is family not communicating#them wanting to be together ALL OF THEM wanting it is... unbelivable in these circumstances#but they do bc theyre all insane and ride or die but the extent of which is a mystery to all of them#anyway thats my essay in the tags#just read the no loops fic where the adults minus siffrin all offer to bring bonnie to bambouche and had FEELINGS about it#my posts
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just had the thought 'in the end the most important thing varric taught rook was how to make a home for, with, and in other people' and then I had to go lie down on the floor and clutch at my head in unceasing agony for a few hours, as you may well imagine. hawke and the kirkwall crew........ in the end you kind of saved the world a bit in the most characteristically indirect and chaotic of ways. not by anything in particular that you did or achieved or accomplished (lmao imagine!), but just by -- having existed, and by the love that was always there, despite it all, in all its imperfections, even when no one was saved by it in the end. you're not here right now and you're not quite haunting the narrative but I hear your voices bickering and arguing and laughing from the other room. (and so, I think, does varric. all the time.)
'did you think you mattered, hawke? did you think anything you ever did mattered?' yeah actually, varric says with da2 and keeps saying through the series. you were here. and I loved you. and as it turns out that mattered more than almost anything in the world, no matter how long it lasted or how fucked up it was at the time or what else happens, because varric manages to pass that feeling, that intangible... home, that echo of you all as you were together, that love, hopefully the best parts of it, on to someone else for them to bring with them on their journey, with their family. and maybe the world will be kinder this time. you never know. merrill's line of 'Everything affects everything. We were born, a bunch of things happened, and now we're in a mess with our friends.' varric's greatest fear of becoming his parents. even through the wreck and the ruin of the world, ghosts upon ghosts upon ghosts of love -- malcolm hawke, who we never even see, but his life touched hawke's and hawke's touched varric's and varric's touched rook's and rook is passing it on to the family they're creating. the unbroken legacy of love shines through in ways that are stronger and stranger than any magic. help
#I woke up. I opened my eyes. this insight hit me over the head like the fist of god. what the fuck. what the FUCK#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#hawke#varric tethras#dragon age 2#dragon age meta#let me live please I've barely reached consciousness I can't deal with this#the kirkwall gang.#what if they were secretly the most important people who ever existed. just because they existed. and for the love that was there#yeah you know what? that's not the worst legacy in the world is it.#da:tv really is da2 2 in some key ways. to me. one of the most da2 lovers or all time#also extremely da2 and also varric core for varric to adopt a kid (as a full adult) completely alone with hawke possibly dead#and STILL somehow manage to make it a varrichawke lovechild on some level. not romantic not platonic but something even more insane#every day varric is unbearably intimate with hawke through the narrative in ways he simply Cannot be with anyone in real life#(in ways you perhaps Should not be in real life. also. lol)#he keeps moving on no matter what b/c that's what you do. but I think varric's real home isn't even kirkwall or a place at all#it's a time. and that time is da2. or at least the story of da2 that he tells himself.#also also what about them themes around parenthood huh. I think varric in the end at least did not become his parents. thank god#trauma gets passed down. but so do other things and you have choices about what you want to leave behind#for those who come after you.#*tears streaming down my face* guess I have to go make breakfast and pretend everything is normal then. sick and twisted
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One of my favorite shipping dynamics :
- A normally introverted/normal guy going through some shitTM
- Goofy Sunshine with DepthsTM who's actually smarter than they look
#i start to realise i have a type#and that type is āDo you trust me?ā and āI know you're more than your personaā#every time i see a best friend character i go#āwill this be the ship i ship?ā#lo and behold 9 times out of 10 yes#souyo#ryomina#bumbleby#hidekane#cloud x zack#keunmoon#keun sejin x park moondae#damian wayne x jonathan kent#literally no end#ill go insane over this lol#bonus points for āI will go through hell itself for youā#loyal best friend dynamic is so fucking good#the loyalty#the tension#the knowing#they share a braincell#but also#they just know each other too well#theyll burn the world down for the other#theyll sacrifice one another for each other#are they friends since childhood or did they just met?#unclear#a relationship built on trust on each other#theres no need for words. a glance is enough
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In defense of late-canon x files (including the revivals)
I was thinking about this poll after I commented on it, and I kinda want to be brave and say more.
Short answer to the poll's question before I go any further: If you're a new fan and a sensitive sort who thinks you'll struggle with your blorbos Really Going Through It and you really need a happy ending, I suggest you stop at the end of season 8. Do not pass go, do not look at spoilers. Disregard this post entirely, close the internet, and go look at something that makes you happy. (Also fuck every part of society that characterizes sensitivity as inherently weak and bad and some kind of personal failing, you are valid.)
That said, "quality" as a concept is entirely subjective, and the question of whether or not there's a decline in quality for any story is wholly subjective, too. In the case of x files? I'm not convinced there is a decline. I am going to be upfront that I haven't yet watched past season 8, though I am almost completely spoiled on events after that - and the reason I haven't watched yet is not because of how I know events are going to unfold, but simply because I don't want it to end!!! Ohh, the tension between "I CAN'T WAIT!!!" and "Nooo don't be over D:"
When I first came to txf fandom on tumblr and gradually became spoiled about what happens in late canon though, I was often left uncomfortable and tbh kinda queasy about it. As I said in my comment on the poll, the hate for especially the revival and IWTB, or to a lesser extent even seasons 8 & 9, is very well documented. But! There are other takes to be found here on tumblr if you figure out where to look, and my feelings have changed!
The thing is, I have yet to find myself in any fandom where there isn't a vocal subset of fans who dislike the story after a certain point. I am not joking when I say that no one hates the things they love as passionately as sci-fi and fantasy fans. In my experience, it often hinges on the extent to which a viewer has strong notions on where they would like the characters to end up. In particular with series where shipping is a dominant component for the bulk of a fandom, I have almost universally found that there comes some turning point in the story where "let them be happy you cowards" is the dominant view, and things that compromise the attainment of a degree of romantic stability and/or domesticity are, to many fans, annoying at best and despicable at worst. But! As one tagset on the linked poll said:
and I think for any fandom, that last tag especially is so so so important. (I think that's harder for people watching a weekly series live, bc you have so much time to analyze and speculate and dream before the next breadcrumb drops, but I digress.)
So why am I saying this and how do I apply it to x files? Well, I eventually found that there are also a subset of fans who find redeeming things right up to the very end and actually quite like the whole thing! The things that I had seen people rage and ventpost so much about honestly never quite sounded to me as "out of character" or "untrue to the story" etc as those same ventposts made them sound. And I've discovered I'm not the only one who felt that way. Do I love that the spooky squad had to go through all of those things? No, those poor guys D: Life is hard and they have been through so much trauma. But do those events and their choices make sense to me in light of everything that came before? Yes! And I honestly can't wait to see them fight to overcome those things, breaking, healing, always learning, always growing, always getting better.
So if you're wondering "where does it go wrong"... well, I'm a completionist, as many people who've answered that post are, but also my personal opinion is that I don't think it does go wrong. If you're new and interested in exploring why I've gone from "vaguely queasy" to "excited" about the whole thing, or want to maybe balance out the impressions you're getting about the later seasons before deciding whether or not you want to see the whole thing, I'll put a few blog names in the comments.
Final admission: even once I started feeling a little more confident in the possibility that "actually ok maybe I'm not crazy, maybe this all kind of is in character and does make sense", there was one big plot point that I was NOT looking forward to and I thought I would never be comfortable about. In hindsight, I think my discomfort came from the negative responses being SO seemingly universal that I hadn't stopped to let myself truly consider other possible interpretations on that point. (I mean my initial instinct when I first read about it was, why are we mad about this?? CSM is literally the most unreliable narrator in history???? it's obviously fake news?????? this must be either a fever dream someone's having or it's a misdirection ploy against whatever shadowy forces might still be lurking?????????????? but for whatever reason I guess I had halfway written that off.) Happily, just last month there's a new post-s11 novel out, and although reviews for the book as a whole are mixed, it seems to have laid the groundwork for resolving that plot issue in a way I think most fans would be broadly happy with. If you're interested in being spoiled about that and seeing how, I recommend searching #perihelion on @agent-troi who liveblogged reading it with receipts, scroll back chronological-style to the first post on the subject and see how it unfolded. (And never forget that Dana Katherine Scully is the queen of denial as a coping mechanism lol)
Everyone's mileage will vary. Each person can feel however they want! But for anyone new, I wanted you to know that the very many ventposts you might be seeing are not all there is to this show or its fandom. Some of us love it despite - or even because of - all the things that went "wrong". I think we just don't talk about it as much.
#i don't talk about it much because tbh it can get *fraught*. and i've had that in other fandoms too.#i added and deleted so many qualifiers from this post over it lmao#people are passionate about fandom which is great! as a concept#but it sucks feeling like most people hate the thing you love or that - however diplomatically it's phrased - you should hate it too#or that folks think maybe you *would* be mad if you just looked at it a certain (sometimes seemingly cast as the 'correct') way#basically it's insane that half the time when i see people standing up and praising the revival i'm like 'damn bruh. you brave'#and feeling that way is partly a me thing. but i've seen posts that also lead me to believe it's not JUST a me thing yaknow?#i always wonder whether the 'vocal subset' in any given fandom who hate a thing are really the majority that they appear to be#or if they just appear to be the majority because they've needed to be vocal about it as a sort of internet support group thing lol#which fair enough i mean anyone's entitled to be disappointed or have feelings#for me? i don't think i can remember ever being mad about a series i liked#i'm just here for the vibes man i very rarely have fixed notions#i say to the writers: go ahead and surprise me. i'll make sense of pretty much anything they throw at me#i also think about a dd quote i saw ages ago that as an actor you (paraphrased): can't say 'the character would not do that'#...because if it's in the script then by definition they *did* do that. it's right there on the page.#and that's kind of me as a fan too.#p.s. i fucking love season 8 i love angst and holy shit it delivers. the new characters are fantastic the journey is *chef's kiss* and#yes i consider certain temperamental even assholeish behavior to also be *chef's kiss* there's so much trauma so much reason for it#it's be-yoo-ti-ful š season 8 my beloved š#anyway watch it all watch none do what you want. just know that there are people who would cuddle the whole damn thing from start to finish#like a floppy wet lil raggedy ann doll if only they COULD#x files#the x files#txf revival#txf thoughts#i love you floppy wet raggedy ann doll
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which character in obm do you think is the most yandere for mc and why?
CRACKS KNUCKLES OKAY (there will be spoilers from nightbringer so just a heads up)
In my opinion it's definitely a tie between Mammon, Leviathan and Belphegor. Mammon In the OG it's been stated that Mammom oversees all forms of greed, and we know how he is head over heels for the MC as well as possessive. (well the rest of the boys have possessive tendencies towards the mc so lol) In Nightbringer we actually see him go super possessive over the MC to the point his brothers struggled trying to get him under control. Although it's been resolved, I still wonder if he'll be able to go that crazy like that again @ the MC. He is the Avatar of Greed after all, he makes it known to everyone that the MC belongs to him only and that he was their "first." Leviathan Avatar of Envy, enough said. I do remember in the OG (whether it was in one of the pop quiz events or the main story, I'll have to dig later) he did say that the MC is his. Either way I do believe he can be the most yandere for the MC. This jealous serpent??? Obviously. The MC is his idol, his angel, his player 2. I genuinely think he can be a terrifying yandere too. Iirc apparently he was supposed to be a canon yandere but they scrapped it? Correct me if I'm wrong but that's pretty much all I can say about him for now, It's not much so sorry. u __ u Maybe I'll edit and add more later. Belphegor He's a canon yandere (mmNNFF YUMMY). In Nightbringer his yandere side is shown more in Lesson 33-14 , Where he tried to keep the MC from going back to the human world (in MC's case, back to the future) by putting a spell on them so they feel tired. He's so wants the MC is to stay and to keep for himself and it shows, not just in nightbringer but pretty much anywhere. Dude got jealous/angry in Lesson 55-18(OG) where if you choose the option "I'm worried about Lord Diavolo." Belphie responds with "sO yOu cArE mOrE aBoUt lORd dIaVoLO tHaN mE?" What a spoiled, bratty, yandere bitch baby. Also a scary yandere. Tbh I can't really choose but it's between these three. Sorry for any typos btw. Honorable mentions: Lucifer , Barbatos , Diavolo
#i'd b biased if i chose belphegor cuz he is my fave but at the same time he IS a canon yandere#but i AM biased so LOLLL#I think everyone has a little(or a lot) of yandere in them cuz they are canonically possessive over the MC anyways#these are just my thoughts of course. I personally would love it if the game got even more dark and more demons being demons(tm)#idk tho i'll take anything i guess considering how some ppl in the fandom(well the louds ones) don't like dark stuff#and go ''nooo BOOOO THEY'D NEVER BE YANDERE' despite everyone being fucked up in their own way#i feel the game is too cheesy sometimes LOL but oh well it's still a fun game#i went absolutely INSANE over Mammon and Belphie being super possessive/yandere in NB.... solmare please MOREE#anonymous#lune answers#obey me mammon#obey me leviathan#obey me belphegor#yandere#spoilers#obey me spoilers
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nothing says "nobody wants AI" more than the fact that the ability to turn off Snapchat's AI chat is locked behind a paywall.
but here's the thing. they don't give a fuck that we don't want it. by building it into all of our apps like this, they're building it into the very infrastructure of the social media world that children are coming up in. and of course kids will use the AI built into their apps when they're bored! it's funny!
they've already burned most of us. we know that social media apps are monopolising and ruining the internet. they don't care that we don't like it. they're building to target the upcoming generations. they're making it the norm for these kids so that they never question it. the complaints from people who remember the internet before now are falling upon deaf ears; the futures of capitalism and fascism are being built into the infrastructure of the internet intentionally, complacency and isolation is being manufactured in children, and critical thought/ability to discern the truth eroded by machines that spit out convincing half truths that are easy to repeat.
it's really like ohhhhhhhhh. THIS is why the shareholders are investing in AI. they're trying to create their beautiful utopia of nondiscerning, uninformed consumers. they're not stupid. they know that we don't want it. but they know they can build it into the world so that in a short few years kids won't remember a search bar without it.
#lowkey going insane over here#im seriously going to start getting more and more crazy about the internet and how fucked it's becoming#but also im stoned and this is super rambly#lol#the system speaks#ai#social media#capitalism#anti capitalism#antifascist#anti ai
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āput me on a pedestal and iāll only disappoint you
tell me iām exceptional, and i promise to exploit you
gimme all your money, and iāll make some origami honey!
i think youāre a joke!!! ā¦but i donāt find you very
fuuuuuuu~nyyyā
More tagr art!!! Assorted stuff this time! Featuring some cute chibi stuff. Some solo gazās, a lil uhhh. Comic of an altercation.. and a very belated Halloween pic I started drawing last Halloween and didnt finish lol. Also featuring lyrics from pedestrian at best cuz that song rllly rlly fits my ver of tak lol.
#invader zim#gaz membrane#invader tak#tagr#iz tak#iz gaz#tak#doodles#there toxic yuri!!! theyāre all over the place!!! tak is tsundere insane alien who fueled by revenge itās gonna be rough!#I think. there relationship would slowly grow and develop as gaz is helping tak w all her injuries#but I think theyād end up having a true true falling out sometime after take fully healed and gets her ship back.#and theyād be split up for a few years maybe? idk how long Iād want it to be. but! yeah.#absence makes the heart grow fonder and makes u realize how fucking stupid u are#and eventually theyād reunite and shit would be better lol#I donāt want them to be at each others throats forever thatād suck lol#theyre just definitely are moments where there at each others throats in the beginning#but they r also moments.. where they both feel true belonging and acceptance. like they never have beforeā¦ and it blows there lil mindsā¦#I also dO want gaz to go into space at some point w tak cuz thatād be fucking awesome#after they reunite again they can go explore the universe a bit#these r all very half baked ideas btw and also my brains mush cuz ive been drawing all day#so please excuse if said ideas suck. also please excuse all the typos lol#I might change my mind on the them separating idkā¦ or maybe make it a shorter amount of timeā¦ idk!! I havent thought thru all this shit lol#itās not like Iām gonna write a story or actually make a comic Iām just drawing random fanart#I donāt need to have all these thoughts all solidified lol
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its so silly but i just keep thinking abt being in norway and seeing for the first time kinda ever that like governments can do things to make peoples life better. for no other reason but just to improve things. like im sure norway has lots of problems i didnt see on a trip but i cannot stress how insane it was that the government had done things because it would be nice. to take care of people. ?????
#tour guide like yeah the minimum wage is decent here its 220 NOK (roughly ovr $22) but its not perfect and literally evryone in our group#being like $22??!?!?!???!?!!? MINIMUM!??!??!!?#i keep thinking about taking the bus and trams in oslo :( and abt walking IN THE STREET in bergen wjthout getting run over#or the restaurant on top of the bergen funiculr mountain getting state owned this year bc it was mismanaged ans going under but#everyone would like there to be a restaurant there so the government just decided to make sure there would be one????#instead ofbjust letting it die???#or ALL THE OIL AND POWER BEING STATE OWNED. HELLO?#its just insane idk. that things can for real be different. where i am theres a revolutionary amt of public teansport for a not huge city#but its still basically one bus and then the slowest most fucked up train in the whole world (40min drive = 2.5 hours by train)#assuming uh thw train doesnt get stuck again lol#it mostly exists to take mormon missionaries to the airport i think lol.#the 'walkable' old town section still has 4 and 6 lane roads you have to cross every block.#i dont know its just... its. augh!!!!!!!!#birdenest#we told one guy the minimum wage for waitstaff was about 21 NOK and he didnt believe us and got upset that we were lying
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I swear to fucking god, everyone in Florida's kink is doomsday prepping for hurricanes
#like dont get me wrong#its important to be safe#& if you live in an area where natural disasters are likely#you should ALWAYS be prepared#& always better to be safe than sorry#but like#WHY WIPE OUT GROCERY STORES#or flush gas stops out of fuel??? like why are we doing this#can you guys NOT#i mean#do people realize#by panicking & buying up water & tp#everyone else is going to try to get some before stores are cleaned out#&#... have you heard of runs on banks#????#THESE IDIOTS ARE CAUSING ALL THE TROUBLE SMHGGG#anyways#hurricane milton is heading like directly over my house#wish me luck that the eyewall does NOT fuck me over lol#insanely glad i went shopping last week so i dont have to deal with fighting my way thru a publix lol
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They gave Topper a girlfriendā devastating actually, I hope he stays fucking insane and obsessive and possessive and a little bitch cause otherwise whatās the poooiiinntttt
I need my kooks PATHETIC and USELESS. She better blow up on him for ignoring her to do whatever Rafeās asking of him this time, I need him to be the worst boyfriend ever cause thereās no way that man can Be Normal for a second lol
#Iām happy Sofiaās still here though#I hope sheās not just arm candy or something lol#also love how kelce is just there#someone give this man SOMETHING to do#give him likeā¦ A SCENE lol#btw I donāt mean this in a āOMG HOW DARE A GIRL COME BETWEEN MY YAOIā kinda way lol#I genuinely just think top would be kinda boring (maybe still a lil funny cause the absurd classism is still there) without something to go+#+ fucking insane over lolā itās fine if itās not Sarah- but if itās not Sarah then donāt make it another girl#I need him to stay a little obsessive and demented bitchboy lol#I need my kooks insane and pathetic and ready to kill a mother fucker lol#I also want this girl to do SOMETHING#same with Sofia#I need these women to be doing shit for the plot#Sofia I think is definitely gonna be doing a lot to give Rafe growth (or make him backwards slide)#but this new girl better do SOMETHING for Toppers character other than being an excuse to make him stop obsessing over Sarah#let us see more of that toxic gaslighting bullshit he pulled with Sarah#let us see her see through his bullshit#I want her to call him the fuck out#btw if sheās a nothing character Iām writing a fic about it /hj maybe#šŖ²#rafe obx#rafe cameron#topper thornton#obx fandom#obx season 4#obx content#sofia obx#obx s4#outer banks s4#obx
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me and my weed ancient
#i hope this design & colors will sufficeš i think iām actually not that insane over them#didnt even look at it for 7 straight hours#i did this instead of my homework. i think iāll die tomorrow in class but itās ok.#damn haha i will endure lolš
#yeah i like these colors i think. yeah (hums and looks into the far away distance) yeah#myart#no lore & fun facts this time bc itās just wade. & i canāt be fucked i want to go Drink#unless you have any questions about him tho then feel free to ask and i will answer#oc: wade
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ok so um. here is a scenario ive had in the drafts for literally over a month and forgot to post. maybe with a second part idk?
i've been thinking way too damn much about clegan and johns dog coded ass and his feelings around body markings. like, hickeys and bites and bruises etc. bear with me this post got really long lmfao.
fuckin. ok. so in a scenario where john and gale are fucking on the side pretty early on after their arrival at thorpe abbots.
everyone knows bucky is a slut, right? bucky can show up with hickeys and bites and red marks and nobody will question it. he might get jeers or crooked grins, theyāll laugh and say he mustāve slept with every girl on base and half the women in london by now, but itās expected.
buck, though? everyone knows buckās got a girl. and maybe he wouldnāt be the first guy to say as much and then fold after months of being away from home. but everybody who knows him knows that buck cleven isnāt like that. and anyway, it would be a little odd considering how consistently he turns down any woman who makes a pass.
you see where i'm going here right.
gale can bite the fuck out of john and leave him with bruises purpling from his neck all the way down to his thighs. when theyāre alone together itās the only time he gets to loosen that iron grip he has on himself, be anything less than carefully composed and controlled. outside gale is the fearless leader, who will sometimes joke and rib but has no vices, no faults. with john he is a hungry, wanting thing, all hands and mouth and teeth.
bucky loves it at first. being desired so much kinda drives him wild, knowing that gale wants him so bad, that thereās so much heat simmering under that cool surface. but thereās also something about the act of leaving marks on him that feels like galeās staking a claim. that bucky allowing himself to be bitten is showing allegiance, or acquiescence, or maybe ownership. something of gale is left there, written across his skin, even if nobody else knows it. the marks say that gale can do what he wants with johnās body, that john is his. heās painted his name across johnās neck and chest.
bucky doesnāt object to this feeling. like, at all. on its own, that part is amazing. the problem is he canāt do it back to gale. buck is so paranoid about being found out, and the communal living of the barracks adds extra complications. and john understands his fears, of course he does, he knows damn well what happens to men who get blue tickets, and heāll respect anything thatāll help buck feel safer about what theyāve been doing. heās pretty sure heād do anything to keep buck coming back, he needs him that badly.
he fucking hates that he has to be so careful. he wants nothing more than to give it right back to buck, to bite the same kind of lurid purple bruises across his skin. he thinks all too often of how buck would react, his shiver at the scrape of john's teeth on sensitive skin and the low breathy noises he'd make. hates that he can't have that. but mostly he hates how he can't stake any claim over gale he way he feels that gale has over him. if buck can do what he wants with john's body, if his bites mean that john is his, then the inverse must also be true: bucky can't do the same, and gale is not his. he has no claim to stake.
which makes sense, really. as far as claims go, someone's already beat him to gale. that's the whole reason the no-markings rule was established.*
it ends up serving as a little reminder to bucky: that the arrangement he and gale have worked out to keep each other sane during all this? it's temporary. when the war ends buck will be going back to build a home and share a bed with someone, and that someone won't be john. he can't forget that however much gale seems to want him in the moment, he's committed elsewhere. john is a way for him to distract himself from everything else going on around them. he thinks sometimes gale does it as much to distract john as himself. taking pity on him or something. he knows buck still loves marge more than anything. he uses her letters like a lifeline, sniffs her perfume off the paper like it might send him back to her if he works hard enough at it.
someone with a better sense of self-preservation than bucky might try to break it off, disengage, try to soften the blow when it inevitably comes, but.
the marks also remind him that he is gale's. has been. is. will be. for as long as gale will have him. bucky needs him in a way that he doesn't bother to deny to himself anymore. his chest feels heavy with it when theyāre together. he knows they're on borrowed time, but that just means john's going to borrow as much of it as he can. avoiding leaving bruises or not using his teeth is nothing, really, he would do so much less (or so much more) if gale asked him, any number of humiliating, desperate things to keep gale wanting to touch him, fuck him. it's fucking pathetic, how much he needs that. john's own stupid hurt feelings are nothing, compared to how much he'd endure for it.
so of course he never brings this whole dilemma up to buck as something that bothers him. he would not dare risk throwing a wrench in their arrangement, which is perfectly functional as it is. they've made it this far via mostly unspoken agreements, mutual willingness to not talk about it more than they need to. john will not even entertain the possibility of breaking that or scaring gale off or somehow ruining what they have. he is already so well versed at suffering in silence, and really this trade off isn't bad. he used to fucking dream of this, the taste of gale's mouth or the feel of their skin pressed together. he can stand being reminded it's temporary. he can stand knowing he's pathetic.
(bucky is a lying liar to himself. he is full of resentment and frustration. he will pretend he's not full of resentment about this for as long as it's physically possible to. gale knows something is up with him but won't say anything too specific about it for the same reason john won't - they don't talk about it if they can avoid it. that's the whole point of unspoken agreements.)
*bucky has not considered that gale would be similarly paranoid even if he was not openly in a relationship and loyal to it (loyal in heavy air quotes lmfao) if not even worse, just because gale cleven is a high-strung freak underneath all the calm collected shit.
#gale has a series of fucked up feelings just as bad as johns about this#but that will have to be its own post because holy shit this is a thousand words long#johns unreliable narrator ass is so funny he rly describes gale being insane with want over him and then is like.#yeah no im pretty sure i need him way more than he needs me and after the war hes going to forget i ever existed#anyway i have a vague idea of how this might conclude if people are interested idk i might end up turning it into a fic lol#john egan#bucky egan#john bucky egan#clegan#buck x bucky#mota#masters of the air#gale cleven#buck cleven#gale buck cleven#sky.txt#sky.wrt
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hey guys all of u are wrong about marcy wu btw nobody gets her like i do
#marcy wu#amphibia#the fear of losing your friends driving you to do insane things only to push them away farther?#absurdly significant fear of change?#mediative tendencies so you can make sure things go along in a way thats most beneficial for everyone because you feel an odd sense of#responsibility for those around you?#never being able to get over anything ever?#lying for the sake of keeping the peace when it makes you sick?#NONE of yall fw her like i do#she fucked up BAAAAAD and bc she is flawed as a perosn bc of the way she acts and how it affects others#lol. lol!#ya#amphibia marcy#calamity trio
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hnnng i KNOW this won't be for a LOOOONG time yet, but i am so, SO stoked for Tim and Brian's first time bonkin' after thinking the other was dead for ten years, ESPECIALLY with them having been exes(?), so they know what the other likes/what they like to be called/where their favorite spots to be kissed are O_O also i'm kinda looking forward to the whole exploratory aspect now with Brian's injury and therefore hindered mobility (meaning they have to experiment to find positions/foreplay that works for them).
also, i'm curious; will we have a Brim-centric fic in the future (regardless of how distant) during/before the events of MH? my favorite parts of IIAB are the two of them pining for each other and doing a terrible job hiding it from the rest of the group <3
Oh god yeah I can't wait to write them getting back together after MH, it's gonna be so fucking fun, so cute and lovely and just AAAAA y'know? They're definitely technically exes after MH but not because they ever broke up, just because Brian was supposedly dead after uni, cos, y'know, Alex. I don't think they'd actually call each other exes, they just kinda lost touch, with both each other and with reality in Brian's case what with him becoming hoody for a whole lot of years.
It's gonna be SO fun writing them figuring each other out again, realising "hey this is the same" and "ooh that's different" and just figuring everything out, especially navigating Brian's disability and having a small child who has absolutely no qualms about barging into their room after bedtime š
They've got a lot to figure out, it's gonna be so cute
As for Brim-centric fics š
I currently have three planned, two with smut and one without.
The two with smut will be them back in Uni getting together for the first time at basically the exact same time Jay and Alex did (there's gonna be SO many parallels between uni Brim and uni Jaylex in that, both relationships starting in earnest at the same party, both are kept secret from the rest of their friends, but one relationship was healthy and the other was extremely not) and the one about them getting together again after MH is all over.
Then the one without smut isn't exactly brim centric as such, at least not romantically? Kinda?
It's about Tim getting out of the hospital at 16 and figuring out the whole 'being a normal teenager' thing, meeting Brian, becoming friends with him immediately, developing a crush on him and subsequently getting unhealthily attached to/obsessed with him to the point that he convinces himself Brian's a god on earth, so when he's struggling like hell with existing and coping with life, he ends up genuinely praying to him :D
I'm especially excited to write that one honestly lol š
Though I also have no idea if I'll be able to do it well. It's been like idk at least half a decade since I dealt with that specific type of religious whatever the fuck that is so I don't remember it super great, but I have dealt with the base of that religious whatever the fuck just without the "my crush is god made flesh!" part within the last year and a half so, fingers crossed I can put that chaos into words š¬
I'm gonna make Tim so mentally ill over his boy :]
#asks#learned my boyfriend does not think im insane for having that religious whatever the fuck over him relatively recently. so thats cool#means i dont feel weird about figuring out what the fuck was going on with it through fic now lol. i can write it and work out why the#fuck my brain did/does that. yknow. fanfic's great for that i love it#marble hornets#tim wright#brian thomas#mh brim#marble hornets fanfic#mh sorry its locked#fic/series rated e on ao3#in case anyone would prefer not to read that#pretty girl propaganda au
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oh captain my captain i didn't know what league of legends game was when i watched arcane. so i thought the plot was alright since i didn't (still don't) know the game lore. if it wasn't basically a prequel story, trying to aim the characters at the way they are in canon, do u think the plot and character arcs would have held up alright? or does that actually make the arcane canon story worse since it wouldn't at least have the existing canon as something it needed to land at eventually as an excuse for any "out of character" decisions? thank u
i wouldnt even call it a prequel story? its like a very elaborate au in a sense, one that feels comfortable changing things to a certain extent- clothes, personality adjustments, motivations, but they still have to hit certain beats. vi has to be an enforcer, jinx has to be a wild card harley quinn type, ekkos time powers ect ect. idk WHAT it is maybe the show needed more time or tighter focus or less characters but i just felt that like, some of the story decisions directly relating to LoL lore werent outright bad but didnt have a lot of time to breathe. the standout example being ekkos time thing, where when i watched that scene i assumed it was both a stylistic representation of a fight and establishing his and jinx's prior relationship (which is kind of too little too late considering they did not fucking speak once as kids pre time skip), and then i had to get a friend to explain to me for SEVERAL MINUTES that he literally died during that fight and it was supposed to be showing his rewind thing. it just wasnt clear at all and his character would not change in the slightest if he didnt have it. but you cant NOT include it so. *
really i have no clue the full extent of the story the writers wanted to tell and how much LoL is binding their hands on story beats. and i REALLY dont want to be inflexible considering i still have a full season coming up that might make me more receptive to certain decisions. but considering how much of the cast i REALLY like just straight up are not in the game, i think they are fully capable of making a solid story completely divorced from league
*someone in the comments told me apparently that Wasnt his time thing and my original read of the scene was correct so im not gonna hold it against the show.
#basically anytime i was like huh thats weird#my friend would lean over and go thats league shit#and then i just kind of sit there. Huh#asks#Anonymous#obviously its a massive step up from league both aesthetics wise and like. as a cohesive narrative#i hate you vi undercut/dreadlocks you are so nasty#but i read like this short except drabble from her bio on the website and. look im sorry#i kind of like that she fucking sucks#it gives her a direction at least#like theyre trying to align arcane violet with the choices of a version of her that seems completely antithetical#but again i cant even get that deep into it we dont know how long her fucking enforcer phase will last!#a month? a year? who knows! we dont even know if she likes it#and LoL vi clearly revels in that kind of violence#idk something about her shittiness made her more engaging#whatever i hope in season two she loses so many fights its important to me actually#like its insane this is going to sound so fucking mean but i like her less bc she wins so goddamn much#i compare her to like. gideon nav obviously but also the protagonist of monkey man#and both of those things kind of emphasize those characters losing Hard. chapter 2 of gtn is her getting her ass beat#it just makes the wins later more satisfying#but idk maybe its supposed to be balanced by her emotional losses but the story feels so. removed from it?#spent like 7 years in prison we see none of it she comes out of there like she wasnt incarcerated in an adult facility since age 15#and now a girl she spent at the LONGEST a week with but probably closer tk 2-3 days is the same level of emotional import as her sister#SHAKING the writers i am not SOLD why is she LIKE THIS#cough. anyway
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